I know it’s cheesy and cliche, but I gave head for the first time in a drive-in movie theater.
It was the second movie and we’d been making out since half way through the first one. I was so turned on but I knew we couldn’t do anything that would fog up the windows.
By that point I had pulled off his shirt, so I knew what I was going to do. I sucked his neck in that way that always makes him squeeze me tighter and then started kissing his collar bone. Then I reached my hands down and unbuttoned his shorts. “What are you doing?’ he asked, sounding surprised. I didn’t answer, I just slipped my hand inside his boxers and started stroking his penis. I kissed him all the way down his torso and then pushed his boxers down so I could see his penis.
I went right at it. I licked it the way I’d seen some girl do it in the only clip of porn I’d ever seen. He was whispering something along the lines of “oh my god. yes!” I tried to get as much of it as I could into my mouth but there was no way it could fit. Just as it hit the back of my throat, he said “babe, no teeth” and I realized my mouth could open any wider. I tried to open wider so my teeth wouldn’t touch his penis, but my mouth was simply not big enough. I went back to sucking up and down and then after a little while he came in my mouth.
I know you’re supposed to swallow, but I just kissed his neck and used my hand to jerk him off til he was done. Then he kissed me and whispered “thank you” into my ear.
On the way home, after I rooted around in the glove compartment for gum, my hands were shaking. I don’t know why I was so freaked out, but I was. He somehow noticed and grabbed my hand. He held it and told me I didn’t have to do what I did. And then he asked “would it be bad if I told you I loved you? i know we can’t be together forever and I know we’re in high school. But I also know I more than like you. I can’t imagine liking anybody else. So yeah. I love you.”
And then I said the only thing true in that moment, “I love you, too”